Perhaps I should explain.
A year ago from now, my 20 year old body failed me. It was a beginning of a challenging life that I didn't foresee. It began as swollen painful, fingers and forearms. Which was labelled as Repetitive Strain Injury. I guess as a third year student it wasn't such a surprise that my repetitive nota taking and essay writing had finally caused my body to break down. But sadly it didn't end there.
By summer, not only were my arms not better but I slowly lost every other part of my body to chronic pain. First, my legs were effected, then my back and not long, I spent everyday feeling as if someone had beaten me up with a baseball bat.
No one could tell me why. After many doctors, specialists and lab tests, I had a doctor diagnose me with deconditioning. He claims that since I used to be athletic and was forced to stop working out because of my condition, that my body was having a reaction and behaving in the same way as someone with fibromyalgia. My only treatment is to do cardio workout everyday and I will be allllll better!
4 months has passsed with me working out everyday with zero results but unfortunately, I am still stuck with the deconditioning diagnoses, hence the Lazy chronic pain disorder.
I have lost hope in the medical community, pain killer, pharmological companies and everything that's good in the world.
So here I am. Just writing away my sorrows.
And if anyone passes by, I hope that I can make them understand and become more sensitive to those with chronic pain.
Additionally, I grew up as a blogger. I started blogging when I was only 9 years old. So i guess it's not surprising that when shit hit the fan, I chose to run towards my old habits.
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